Every now and then I wonder how different my life would be today if I had known all the things that I know now…then. Then sometimes being yesterday, last year or many years ago. Not saying that I have regrets in my life, because I am a firm believer in que sera sera, so whatever will be will be… but let’s just say that things weren’t; and I had the chance and maybe a time machine to school the younger and at times dumber versions of myself…what would I say?
Well I think the first order of business would be to tell 10-year old me to get my parents hip to the words Microsoft and the Internet. I’m sure they would have looked at me sideways, but I was pretty convincing as a child, especially when our fortune, well let me rephrase that, especially if we had the opportunity to amass a fortune. I’m sure once I knew what was at stake I could have easily explained super highways with computers talking to each other through an intricate network of phone lines.
With fortune amassed I don’t think I would have to tell myself anything else…because I would be rich b*tch! Okay I’m kidding.
But seriously, I would have to tell myself that life ain’t no crystal stair. That in this life I am going to have some setbacks even though a lot of things came easy to me with little effort on my part. I will have to learn that most things worth having require effort. I just can’t say f-it and let things be because I feel like being lazy.
Then, I would have to tell myself to never ever EVER let mama Amaretto cut my hair. I had a jacked up hair cut in middle school that no amount of hot curling or slicking back could conceal the ugliness that was my coif. I’d have to get her a baby doll to see what things she had in her scissor happy mind first!
I would also have to tell myself to ask more questions. Not to the point of being like an annoying 2-year old and on some why is the sky blue sh*t. But maybe if I had asked certain people who I gave my heart to what their intentions were, maybe I would have cried a lot less. Maybe I wouldn’t have tiptoed into the world of depression. Maybe not gone through a period of wondering if I was good enough to be loved… Maybe if I had known to ask questions instead of going with the flow…then maybe something would have been different.
And then on some index cards that I could carry around, I would tell myself to:
save my money. laugh as much and as loud as possible.
Remember credit is worse than cash while in college. not to rush to get older. cherish the time spent with older relatives. Stop wearing jeans that are too small-its stupid, even if they are cute try something before I say I don’t like it. I would tell myself to stop being afraid of failing, of hurting or being wrong. I would tell myself to live my life to the fullest, and have fun determining what fullest means to me.
But most importantly, I would tell myself to really reiterate the words Microsoft and the Internet to my parents! Gates, Gore and Amaretto Jenkins! *sigh* If only I had known...
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