Hey y'all! I am writing this post late Tuesday night, going into Wednesday, to arrive on your computer screens this Friday. The reason? Cause I'm on my way outta town for a much needed vacation! And I like to be responsibleish.
Originally this post was gonna be me just throwing up the deuces mixed in with some 'these are my confessions'. And I was gonna talk about how this is my first vacation alone and I'm ascared, not because I don't enjoy my own company (I loves me!) but because I felt like this was like three toes over the line of SINGLE BLACK WOMAN FO' LIFE! But then...
Amaretto and I witnessed something tragic (and traumatic) on Monday night. And in that moment all the seemingly cliche things people tell you about life: that it's short, and priceless, and not promised, and fleeting - were proven right in that instant. The old folk (and the Bible) say, watch and pray, [for no one knows the day or the hour.] And man, that last pearl of wisdom is all I've been able to think about.
And so I unwrapped myself out of all the worry I felt about going on a vacation alone and forced myself to evaluate the sit'chation. Why am I going on vacation? Cause I need a DAMN vacation! And I'm grown! And I'm tired and just wanna lay on somebody's beach. And if not now, then when? And yet two of my aunties were like, "be honest. Who are you going on vacation with?!" They would not believe that it was just going to be me.
Because people don't like when you go against convention. Or do what they could never fathom. Or be something they didn't decide for you. And I get it. But maaaaannnnn... What happened on Monday got me thinking about who I been, where I'm at, and where I'm tryna be. Got me wanting to truly start living out my purpose. Find joy where I usually complain. Truly enjoy and find the beauty in every.single.day. Practice random acts of kindness. And tell folk on a regular basis that I love 'em. Take risks. Believe in myself. Travel just because. Drop the baggage. And enjoy the freedom. Try new things. And accomplish my goals. Got me just wanting (as corny as this sounds) to be all I can be. To just be me. And love it.
That's my time y'all! Happy Rum Punch Friday!
4 comments:
hahaha @ "responsibleish"...
I hear ya on wanting to live life to the fullest after you hear about a "shocking event" that hits close to home. I, too, heard about something that happened (and is still happening) to someone in my family. hearing such things SNAPS you out of your zombie-like routine of life--i know it does that to me! now can i keep it up? can i use this person's "misfortune" to give me the needed kick in the pants to git MY shit together? hmmmm. we shall see!
as far as vacationing on your own? i'm ALL for it! i've never vacationed alone, but would have. all i need is a good book, the beach, a couple of drinks with umbrellas and i'm set!!! i see NOTHING wrong with that. HAVE FUN!
@ Mrs Meany - Heyyy! Thank you! I had an awesome time! Got to relax, enjoy free drinks and get a tan. Twas wonderful! No amount of !!! can convey my excitement. Lol. I totally feel you on something snapping you outta routine, but will you keep it up? I agree. I want to just start small. Baby steps. Not be on some Rum Punch version of 'Eat, Pray, Love' - ha! But start doing things that I want to do and then do them.
yup. baby steps! one day at a time sweet jesus that's all i'm asking of you...('member dat song? hahaha)
rome wasn't built in a day.
create your list of things you want to accomplish, be they big or small, and chip away at it--one item at a time! GOOD LUCK.
i'm over here chippin' away my-damn-self...
Yesss! I lurve that song! I sing it to myself from time to time when things aren't going my "way." ;-) Yes, I feel you on creating a list and chipping away - especially since the things I want to do aren't necessarily clearly tangible or about money or things. Just a rich life w/ some great experiences.
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